2015…

2015

A good year, well I would even say a great year.
Though I had my heart broken into thousands pieces by its early beginning spending nights crying my heart out, I thought I was incredebly in love over a virtual “relationship”, but days showed me that it was an illusion, thanks to the support of my friends and family they stood by my side and made me see the truth and have a clearer vision to what was really happening… and maaan I was living in my own imagination, I guess I was so eager to fall in love that i created a whole plot in my mind and believed that I was the star of my own movie. Obviously it took me a while  to let go of that imaginary feeling and situation I was living in, I’m not sure was it because I hate to admit that I lost, or refusing the rejection or failing in another “relationship” again, I just couldn’t believe that I was not loved back… again.
Well I guess it’s still hard to face all that but life goes on, it should, it is going on.
Better days came indeed, I spent the summer in Paris, I’ve tried new things, dared to cross another line and to leave another level of my comfort zone. I guess I can fairly say that I had my ups and downs even, I’m really gratefull for that I’m thankfull for the lessons, and forgiving the pains but I’m gratefull for my happy moments, I’m happy for meeting Lauryn Hill in a plane, happy for having a romantic date next to the eiffel tower in Paris, happy for being in the middle of a huge crowd in a street party in freaking Amsterdam with my friends singing loudly and dancing on Rihanna’s “Shine bright like a diamond”!! How awesome is that! in a million year I would never thought that would happen to me. I’m really grateful for that.
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So many wishes for the new year, as I do for each year, so many wishes has gone with the wind to be replaced with many unpredictible good and bad news. I still wish for people, for some adventure, though I know it’s impossible, but the childish part in me can never stop hoping for a miracle.

Women!

“Women often postpone their lives, thinking that if they’re not with a partner then it doesn’t really count. They’re still searching for their prince, in a way. And as much as we don’t discuss that, because it’s too embarrassing and too sad, I think it really does exist. ” Jane Campion

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Both men and women complete each other, none can deny that 🙂

Happy women’s day Tunisia!

The Good Heart

Seeing this post and wondering:

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Being good,  is it because of your innate natural instinct or is it a result of your weakness and cowardness to fight and prove your existence and your worth in this selfish society!

What Happens When You Make Yourself Vulnerable

Thought Catalog

To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable. – C.S Lewis 

I have always struggled with vulnerability. I like being strong; I’ve always had to be strong, and I have associated vulnerability with weakness for as long as I can remember. Of course in everyday life, it would be difficult for people to know this. I am seen as someone who is quite open and outgoing, at…

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Dear Self… “Sorry”!

Dear Self

I’m terribly enormously sorry!
I’m sorry for misleading you …

I’m sorry for convincing you that you’re an extraordinary person who will be living fairytales in her life, for telling you that everyone around you is wrong and blinded to see the truth, the truth about the real purpose of life, but I was the wrong one. Sorry for brainwashing your small head with all the scenes you’ve seen in your stupid happy ending movies or read in your shallow perfect plotted book collection.

I’m  sorry for making you a victim of your own imagination, sorry for making a fool of you in those times when you had to confront real world with your dreamy thoughts and mythical values.
I’m sorry for leaving you alone, incomprehensible, outcast in your own perfect pinky world.

That being said, I know you would expect me to change, I promise I’ll try but it will take time to recover into what I really am, just another ordinary person who’s afraid to be alone and seeks for happiness.

Finally, thanks for the enlightenment dear Louis C.K. you’ve been a great inspiration.