2015…

2015

A good year, well I would even say a great year.
Though I had my heart broken into thousands pieces by its early beginning spending nights crying my heart out, I thought I was incredebly in love over a virtual “relationship”, but days showed me that it was an illusion, thanks to the support of my friends and family they stood by my side and made me see the truth and have a clearer vision to what was really happening… and maaan I was living in my own imagination, I guess I was so eager to fall in love that i created a whole plot in my mind and believed that I was the star of my own movie. Obviously it took me a while  to let go of that imaginary feeling and situation I was living in, I’m not sure was it because I hate to admit that I lost, or refusing the rejection or failing in another “relationship” again, I just couldn’t believe that I was not loved back… again.
Well I guess it’s still hard to face all that but life goes on, it should, it is going on.
Better days came indeed, I spent the summer in Paris, I’ve tried new things, dared to cross another line and to leave another level of my comfort zone. I guess I can fairly say that I had my ups and downs even, I’m really gratefull for that I’m thankfull for the lessons, and forgiving the pains but I’m gratefull for my happy moments, I’m happy for meeting Lauryn Hill in a plane, happy for having a romantic date next to the eiffel tower in Paris, happy for being in the middle of a huge crowd in a street party in freaking Amsterdam with my friends singing loudly and dancing on Rihanna’s “Shine bright like a diamond”!! How awesome is that! in a million year I would never thought that would happen to me. I’m really grateful for that.
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So many wishes for the new year, as I do for each year, so many wishes has gone with the wind to be replaced with many unpredictible good and bad news. I still wish for people, for some adventure, though I know it’s impossible, but the childish part in me can never stop hoping for a miracle.

It’s not a happy day… but!

It’s not a happy day , it’s not even a good day but I still feel somehow cheerful and gleeful.

Since the minute I opened my eyes this early monday morning I was feeling happy, not happy blissful, full of joy or having that sweet childish happiness that makes you giggle over the smallest tricks ;which for some they may say that it’s the reversed effect of high depression; no it’s not that. I’m just ‘happy’ contented, ‘happy’ relaxed, ‘happy’ positive attitude no matter what happens in this gloomy day, I don’t know where that came from and I don’t feel like analysing like I usually do but I’m just happy today and I wanna share my positive vibes!

Have a great day y’all 🙂

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Ding Ding… 2015 is already here !

Another new year has come and a lot of wishes and resolutions has been made, it’s just a matter of time and some of those hopes will turn into reality but many will remain just a wish as they have been for the previous years.

My wishes for the new year are the same every year, “I want to be happy”. I always say “I never asked for muchn I just want to be happy, but it looks like these days happiness costs a lot!

Three years ago I wished to be happy in 2012 hoping it would be a successful year for me by finishing my college, because at that time passing college was what made me happy. The next year I wished for a better job and a better lifestyle because I was stuck in an awful job, and I thought changing my job orthe city could make me happy. During 2013 I changed my job and left the country and still not feeling exactly “that happy” so I was looking or what was missing in my life, and eventually I wished for love for the next year!

I fell indeed in love in 2014 and it hurts like hell! Now you may think  that this year I’ve grown more mature and I discovered again that love doesn’t make me happy as I thought it would and I will wish for something else in 2015, but that’s not exactly true, I still wish for love not just in 2015, but for all my life. I know it hurts but still it was the best feeling I’ve ever experienced, it doesn’t matter that the experience was shitty as you can ever imagine but the feeling itself was amazing, undescribable and I do wanna feel it again! so my wishes for the new year for all the people I know and for myself as well is to be absolutely living a happy dreamy love story ❤

And remember to always have faith in life because you never know what tomorrow can bring 🙂

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Happy Friday Folks !

I don’t really feel like writing these days but I do feel like saying Hello to all of you folks 🙂 Have a great weekend and a happy friday.

Here’s one of my favorite bands in the world. Lovely people please be my guest and enjoy listening to the amazing Zoë Johnston performing the legenday song “Small Moments Like These” by  Above And Beyond, because what is left of our lives to remember is just some Small Moments of what we’ve been through!

#Excerpt “My Delicious Reading of the Day!”

“And I want to play hide-and-seek and give you my clothes and tell you I like your shoes and sit on the steps while you take a bath and massage your neck and kiss your feet and hold your hand and go for a meal and not mind when you eat my food and meet you at Rudy’s and talk about the day and type up your letters and carry your boxes and laugh at your paranoia and give you tapes you don’t listen to and watch great films and watch terrible films and complain about the radio and take pictures of you when you’re sleeping and get up to fetch you coffee and bagels and Danish and go to Florent and drink coffee at midnight and have you steal my cigarettes and never be able to find a match and tell you about the tv programme I saw the night before and take you to the eye hospital and not laugh at your jokes and want you in the morning but let you sleep for a while and kiss your back and stroke your skin and tell you how much I love your hair your eyes your lips your neck your breasts your arse your…

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#Quote “Most of the pain we feel is nothing more than a story that needs telling!”

most-popular-cats-sam-has-eyebrows-2“Highly sensitive people are too often perceived as weaklings or damaged goods. To feel intensely is not a symptom of weakness, it is the trademark of the truly alive and compassionate. It is not the empath who is broken, it is society that has become dysfunctional and emotionally disabled. There is no shame in expressing your authentic feelings. Those who are at times described as being a ‘hot mess’ or having ‘too many issues’ are the very fabric of what keeps the dream alive for a more caring, humane world. Never be ashamed to let your tears shine a light in this world.”
Anthon St. Maarten